Monday, May 28, 2007

Left behind

God seems to be 'removing' friends from my life lately. People are focussing on their new relationships, or they've entered a new 'life stage' that I'm not in, and no matter how much I might want it, I can't be part of (e.g. the newly engaged, the young marrieds, the new parents).
I'm so tired of being left behind. Every few years it's the same: meet fabulous new people and then suddenly once they find their 'one true love' I'm out of the picture and have to start all over again.


Of course, merely by posting this, I'm sounding bitter and grumpy, and it's true, I am a lot grumpier these days. I don't want to be but I think it's a side-effect of everything else (ongoing pain, life upheaval, rejection). I'm used to being Sunshine!Nic not Grumpy!Nic but it's the latter one that keeps rearing her head.

One would hope that some true friends would come to my aid to cheer me up but of course the best ones are overseas. :( Or they've ditched me already. :p

In other, happier news, Pirates! It was a very cool movie.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Reflections on a 2 year adventure

I've been transferring all of my photos to my new computer. Of course I couldn't help browsing through them... and I realised something quite interesting.

My 'crazy travel schedule', all of the amazing places I saw in Europe, Africa, the USA... it doesn't mean nearly as much to me as the photos of Manchester do. The friends I had there, the friends I miss so very much.

I made a life there. I always knew it was temporary, but it was *oh so special*, and now I wish I'd taken MORE photos of my friends instead of other countries.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Dreaming of an English Summer

It gets dark around 5pm at the moment in Brisbane. It makes me so sad. Even though I am a 'night person' and love the dark, there's something equally beautiful about daylight until 11 o'clock at night.

That's how it was in an English summer. Hours upon hours of daylight and even if the sky was grey, the daylight still made me happy. There was just a 'buzz' in the air, the ability to be out so late without fear. :)

I wish we had daylight saving in QLD, because even in the height of summer, it still gets dark around 7pm.

I'm not feeling particularly well lately, after the brilliant few weeks I had of feeling SO energised (including the trip to Keppel Island!) the fatigue came back. And of course catching a simple flu is 10 times worse. Not to mention the ex-broken leg which keeps hurting, but that was because I ran on Keppel Island (impact sports hurt). And why did I run? If I didn't run I would have missed the boat and been stuck on the island another day. Which wouldn't have been such a bad thing.... ;)

But seriously, I have such a bad sense of direction. I thought I was on the close beach and had plenty of time to get to the boat but as I approached the cliffs, it seemed apparent that ANOTHER bay stretched out before me, so I had to run about 4km, 500m over rocks (so more rock-hopping than running!) while wearing a bikini and no shoes, and hoping desperately that my energy didn't run out before I got there.

I made it. Yay for stubborn perserverence!!!